I’m not so good at sleeping without pills yet. All night I was in and out of a dream where I was trying to sleep in all these different rooms — including one with a gorgeous fireplace and another that was underwater! — but mostly I was just up. Insomnia is actually a withdrawal symptom from the meds so it’s not hopeless yet, I’m really hoping to sleep sans pharmaceuticals.
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I’m exhausted today but it’s my day off and I’ve already gotten most of what I wanted to get done, done. (I gave up on getting any real sleep at 7am so I’ve had a few hours to productive it up, woop woop.) Also I’m wearing my funniest shirt, so I’ve got that going for me. Hoping to gather enough energy to visit the beach and kick some essay ass, wish me luck! Happy day to you 😘
Do you ever feel like a wash of yourself? Like you used up all your mojo and you’re just left with this empty shell-thing? I’m having one of those days. I’m fine, but after a couple days dealing with very intense pharmaceutical withdrawal symptoms from fibromyalgia meds I feel like a mere echo of me... Eeee. (Heh.)
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I’m hopefully replacing the pills with THCA, a cannabinoid from the cannabis plant. It’s non-psychoactive and is especially good for nerve pain, which is perfect for all-day fibro medicating. A couple of coworkers who also fight chronic pain/illness swear by it, I’m hoping it’ll have long-term healing effects as well as taking the edge of the pain, as it is already. Yay for cannabis! (And also for popcorn.) G’nighty night 😘
I’m having a rough day. My insurance didn’t go through at the pharmacy and I’m having awful withdrawals from Cymbalta — because pills that barely do anything (aside from causing addiction) are really fucking expensive. It feels like I keep falling up out of my body, or like I’m rolling backwards down a hill. I have these quick but powerful bursts in my head that an apparent lawsuit against the company mildly describes as “brain zaps.”
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Withdrawal symptoms also include intense depression, which hindered me from sorting the insurance ordeal today because I couldn’t stop crying and thinking awful thoughts. Rahhhh. And I had to leave work early! My perfect attendance is all busted. At least I got out of there before I lost it, barely, it was a bleary-eyed drive home. It seems like the worst is over though, god I hope so. I feel like I’m going to vomit up my actual guts. At least it’ll be one less pill I’m taking. #fuckpharma
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📸: I went to an infrared sauna yesterday, where I had cold sweats that make perfect sense now. Pretty lights though, eh?
