After many halted attempts to make it to LA for a White People 4 Black Lives meeting, the Unitarian church here introduced me to a local movement that’s focusing on a related matters: the fuckwad of issues with police vs people of color (and those who are unhoused).
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Last night I was so grateful to be in the energy of the room (at the lovely @flora_y_tierra ✨), where passionate, educated, and warm people provided information that sometimes stunned me in my white ignorance; but I tried to focus on that warm inspiring energy, which wasn’t hard to do, especially with two kitties frolicking about and the sounds of kiddos playing in the next room.
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Today, looking through these slides (following my apt tarot card for yesterday) the feels are sinking in. I see much more specifically why the word “overwhelmed” was repeated by various folks at the beginning of the event. The fuckheads in charge are atrocious, insanely well-funded, and seriously using spy equipment to make up excuses for harassing citizens...and, as you hopefully know, much much worse.
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So now, while still feeling amped at the opportunity to be a part of local community do-gooding once again, I’m feeling more upset and “Meg go SMASH.” Hopefully it’ll turn into a productive essay someone actually buys, my draft of related rejected ideas is looooooooong. Send juju I find a local pub who takes freelancers, or somewhere even more impactful 🤞
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I also jotted down a couple quotes I loved, both from a wise rep of the Flora y Tierra (I’m sorry I didn’t catch your name!), “Normalize connection building,” which is a way joyful approach to erasing the ‘other’ mentality about racial/cultural differences. And the idea of “decolonizing our minds,” which is so succinct and targeted vs deleting/confronting the cultural conditioning of white-dominated culture. LOVE.
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Thank you @blmlbc and @stoplapdspying ❤️❤️
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#longbeachcity #longbeachcalifornia #policebrutality #policestate #blacklivesmatter #advocacy #community #damntheman
NEW ARTICLE, How to Tell Legal from Illegal Cannabis Dispensaries in California: The Cali canna industry is honestly a hot freakin' mess. Consumers haven't had an easily distinguishable way of discerning legally-compliant shops from the illegal ones — which *seriously* outnumber the legal guys. ⠀
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But, now there's a way to tell, at last!⠀
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Check out the whats, whys, and hows, in my latest for @leafly by clicking on my bio link, then “Writing Around the Web.” 💚
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#cannabisindustry #californiacannabis #cannabis #cannabiscommunity #writer #cannaindustry #california #legalcannabis
Asshoolios. We all know 'em. Sometimes we even behave like 'em, don't we? Most of us eventually see our err; and try to make good, hurt as it may. But there's some that can never ever seem to see their own wrong doings...and these are the true asshoolios.⠀
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These guys don't mean to be mean, it's usually just their own unhealed wounds at the wheel, but they still hurt people and fuck up lives nonetheless. They need to be taught that this behavior isn't effective, and, as a society, we really teach them the exact opposite.⠀
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When someone's a dick (even to someone else, even while "joking," even if they're the boss) it's tempting to shrink, to make yourself less noticeable so that heat's not tempted to burn your way – but then they fucking win, man. ⠀
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They dominate the exchange, and the heat's rarely thrown back in their stupid faces; which is the whole point of their debacles, to deflect negative attention from their insecure asses.⠀
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Assholes often appear fuckless, but it's a faux-fucklessness. It might scream "I do what I want!!," but it's actually just a precious security blankie, one they have no idea they’re clinging to. A warped mirror offered to the world instead of their authentic soul.⠀
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And that authentic soul would be cool AF someday, if only given the chance to play. To grow on purpose, to not only acknowledge their errs, but to make light of them, as they used to do at others' expense. ⠀
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They could make growth a shtick, or a company culture, industry standard, or cultural norm – because these fuckheads run this world. And it's got to stop. ⠀
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To this end, I vow to call these peeps on their shit more often, and to continuing to offer "yeahHhhhh!!'s" if someone braver starts first. And, more importantly, I vow to always be my weirdass self, even though she tends to take more of this 'heat,' it's just worth it.⠀
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So, you with me?⠀
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#donoharmtakenoshit #personalgrowth #assholes #growth #damntheman #growth #spiritualgangster #hurtpeoplehurtpeople⠀
This is a video of a meditation about a month ago. I’d recently gone to a spiritual workshop by one of my favorite teachers, and I was buried in an art project that I’d completely thrown myself into. It was all I did that week, the week before, and the week after — minus 2 social occasions, a happy hour snack, and a couple beach breaks.
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But I felt great about it, like I was taking a chance on something that could really lead to something happening with my work; something that feels naive, thirsty, and unfocused from here, but I was so very hopeful at this time! Hope can be an intoxicating fucker. Ungrounding. And way centering? 🤣
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In this too-close video (sorry), I wasn’t so focused that I didn’t get up to change in shorts nor lick my chapstick-less lips a jillion times; yet toward the end you’ll see that my body starts bobbing around and I stop touching to bracelet I use to keep my mind focused on my mantra.
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This happens when you reach more relaxed brain states in meditation and you become less aware of your bod. And I freakin’ miss it!! It’s been major beta brain since, alpha on a great day — but none this theta-delta stuff since the floor fell out of that project (to be classy about what happened), leaving me totally and utterly gutted.
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And three weeks later, I’m fucking burnt out and so overwhelmed tears won’t stop stinging my eyes. I’m furious at the dippy woman in this video who trusted another fairy-loving stranger, just four fucking months after that Ojai fairy punk left her stranded! (And I used to feed them as a child! Geez.)
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I guess that’s how we wind up with “lessons we’ll never forget” — we act too forgetful for too fucking long. But a month from now, my invoices should make me feel nice n’ secure, and I will have made up for that dumbass time expenditure.
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And I bet I’ll have made it back to theta-delta fun (anyone have tips to distinguish between the two?), having found a wiser and more stable center who’s bottom ought not fall out. Please send juju, feeling mighty wobbly with quite a ways to go. Thanks for listening 😘
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#meditation #transcendentalmeditation #growth #personalgrowth #spiritualgangster #freelancer #freelance
This writer is new to me, and I like... Here’s a few more quotes, perfect for anyone else need of some #yougotthis juju and wisdom about getting one’s head on straight 😘:
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“We must remember that no matter what our object in view may be, that discouragement is very liable to cause a break in the engine that is to take our train to the fair city we so long have desired to reach.”
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“Therefore, if we wish to ascend in the scale of life, we must cease those confused and destructive states of mind that hinder expression, and become as the lilies of the field.”
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“Forgive the mistakes of the past and press on to greater achievements of the future.”
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“Life becomes the way it is lived; and man may live the way he wants to live when he learns to think what he wants to think.”
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#christiandlarson #personaldevelopment #encouragement #mindfulness #selfworth #consciousliving #getitgetit
Whewww, what a week. I’ve been plugging away at catching up on writing after last month’s ill-fated art commission, and though I miss other humans and the outside world — it’s been fascinating and inspiring, I love what I do sooooo freakin’ much.
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I’m mostly working on two pieces for #Leafly, one about orgasms and improving #endocannabinoidsystem health; and the other about the movement to decriminalize psychedelic plants, which I learned it’s verrrry quickly expanding due to a group called @decriminalizenature.
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I’ll share more when the article comes out, but Denver, Oakland, and Santa Cruz have all decriminalized chosen psychedelics under a grow, gather, give model. So, they’ll be no “shroom dispensaries,” but there will be various community and therapeutically-oriented ways to connect.
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It’s been awesome to learn about a potential future where #spoonies have cured themselves with, ahem, self-love (+ other #ECS boosters); and where sacred plants grow in community gardens, available for the healing of many more conditions*.
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Feeling very grateful. I’ve wanted to do work the can help people my whole life — I didn’t ever imagine it’d involve orgasms and psychedelics, but I can’t say I’m any less amped. 🤣
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* Chronic pain, cluster headache, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), mood disorders, substance use disorders, and psychological distress associated with life-threatening illness, among others (Tupper et al., 2015).
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📸: Eyes on the prize, gave my hairs a big trim, a random bit of my beloved fridge/scrapbook, delish fried rice (#coconutaminos!!), and a funny transcription app miss. Good times, good times indeed.
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#writer #cannabiswriter #spooniecommunity #themoreyouknow🌈 #decriminalizenature #psychedelics #health #spooniesupport #grateful
