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Oopsie daisies. I’m a bit of a burnt Meg. But the beach was glorious! I haven’t swum in the ocean yet since this fibromyalgia business and I don’t know how my body will react; so since I work tomorrow I didn’t risk a swim, but got about as close as I could! Bottom trunks soaked ✔️☀️💦

I’m stressed. I’m trying to find a new place to live by the first and at the same time trying to afford my new cannabinoid regimen (which is enabling me to work at all due to health problems) — and I keep getting swept up into a tizzy of pointless worry and stress, letting my fear of homelessness run wild around my brain, and it’s just no good. I’ll be working hard to stay present whilst doing all I can today, which makes the productivity all the more effective. Worry is worthless. (So fuck off and leave me alone, worry!) Staying present. Lovely day off with all the resources I need to get stuff done and hopefully even a beach visit later. I hope your day’s a goodie! 😘

Oooooh boy. I drove around the LA area for four freakin’ hours erranding after work today, blerrrrrg. I got all the stuffs done though and tomorrow I’m going to enjoy no driving at all, ah. It’s funny, this time last year erranding was the highlight of my week; I was so sick it was usually the only time I was able to muster the energy to get out of the house and the next day(s) were always h-e-l-l recovering. I get frustrated with how far away a normal healthy life feels, but it’s important to remember how far I’ve come. If you’re just getting started on a healing path, I know it’s bonkers hard but all the teeny tiny baby steps really do add up, I promise. • 📸: I got some radical perks at work the other day 🎉💚 #dispensarylife

Ever feel totally misunderstood? Like no one gets you? • Is it because you're kind of hiding from them? • Not showing bits of yourself that you fear will be rejected. Responding to offense with a fake laugh instead of asking, "What do you mean by that?" Saying things you think people want to hear. Not showing up at all. • There's so many ways to hide, and they're all so normal. Fuck 'em all, man.⠀

Big news, you guys. I went out on an actual social occasion. 🎉 And this time it wasn’t even for work! (Not that I’d mind, #dispensarylife) It was a happy hour date and it was awesome and I feel like a real person instead of just the fibromyalgia riddled semi-person that I usually am. I love my job, I don’t mind resting, and I’ve even been tagging lil’ adventures onto errands — but I sure needed something like that, just pure fun. Hooraaaaay ❤️❤️ • 📸: Hitting up Rodeo Drive post-erranding last week.

I’m trying not to feel bad about such a wildly unproductive day. With chronic illness — and heck, without it — sometimes you just need a day of rest. And more rest. And maybe a little exercise. Annnd some more rest. I hope you were able to get you some self care this Sunday 😘

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