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May your cup runneth over on this lovely April 20th. 💚

Happy 4/20!! Did you know that this annual celebration of started because some high schoolers were given a treasure map to find a patch of free cannabis? True story. ⁣ ⁣ They routinely met up at 4:20 to get stoney and hunt for the garden, which they never found; but it turned into all kinds of 4:20 adventures, then an annual 4/20 shindig. You could say it caught on...⁣ ⁣ Happy holidaze, friends 💚⁣ ⁣ #420 #cannabis #happy420 #cannabisculture #cannabiscommunity #cannabislove #cannabiz #cannabisindustry #cannabiswriter #cannalove #420love⁣ ⁣ ⁣

I was bad yesterday, and it was deeeelicious. I don’t eat a lot of stuff for health reasons but allowed glorious CHEESE, mmm-mmm-mmm. It was also the first time in a very very long time I treated myself to a full meal out — errr, to-go #spoonieprobs, but still! . The reason I indulged yesterday is because I indulged on Thursday, having one more pain-melting glass of vino than I should have — not enough for a full-blown hangover but enough that my food cravings were like whoa all through work, it was hard to focus. 🤣 . It’s funny how bad habits are all interconnected, one leading to another. Reasons why I made my alcohol rules refreshed. Balance is my friend. (Though don’t be surprised if I forget in another couple months; all things in moderation, even moderation, eh?) Food cravings and an off mood yesterday don’t seem like a big deal, but the way I approached my whole day was different. . I was getting through my experience instead of enjoying it. A routinely off mood can make for an off life, and it has for me. It made me feel a bit sad for past-me, and eager for a future-me that doesn’t know needing pharmaceuticals or even cannabis. Not that I’ll be quitting the latter once I don’t need pain meds, but to know a truly clear headspace — I’ll sure dig having that option. . And I had an early 4/20 feast! Maybe I’ll try to actually get high tonight. As a longtime #medicalcannabis user, it almost never works; when I try it usually just results in a oh-so-slightly longer and better pain fix, lots of coughing (ouch #fibro), worse cognitive/talking troubles, and side effects like dry mouth. (I have no idea why it works randomly, there’s internet theories that is has to do with high omega-3’s? Sure is fun when it happens though!) . Happy Saturday and 4/20, hope your day’s balanced yet totally splendiferous 😘

It's a full moon Friday! (Hugs to all the nurses out there.)⁣ .⁣ According to @Bustle this full moon "marks a precipice of change in in a myriad of areas — especially for relationships, money, and love. This particularly special luminary rises on Friday, April 19, and it's bringing with it an opportunity to close doors to the rooms we no longer want to spend our days in — as well as an opportunity for new doors (filled with shiny, new opportunities) to open."⁣ ⁣ It's also the second month in a row that the moon is in Libra, "a second chance to bring your outstanding financial and relationship issues to a proper conclusion (again)." ⁣ ⁣ Let's do this. For reals this time. ✨⁣ ⁣ #fullmoon #fullmooninlibra #astrology #closure #endings #lettinggo #beginnings #freshstart #change #opportunity #getitgetit #growth #abundance #iamready

I love this image. A big part of my fucklessness journey has been the transition from "NICE" to "kind." Not that I never used to do things from kindness, I am a long-time convert to the joys of do-gooding – but for a long time it was mixed in with NICE and confused my efforts.⁣ ⁣ Kindness is never two-faced. It can't be. (Ex., I've volunteered, then whined about the obligation to others. That was NICE, not kind.) See NICE isn't actually about the others involved or the act of supposed kindness; it's about the person being seen as a NICE person, it's about avoiding confrontation and being liked. ⁣ ⁣ NICE will say sweet things to your face, then agree with a hater just as quickly. NICE people tend to agree, despite actual feels. (Being NICE is a great way to lose yourself.)⁣ ⁣ Are you accidentally NICE-ing? It sure happens. It's culturally appropriate. It's convenient. And sometimes it looks a whole lot like kind. The key to telling the difference is motivation. Would you do/say warm-hearted thing if no one knew you did it? *Why* are you choosing to do it?⁣ ⁣ And your motivation for doing kind things can totally be "because it's fun." It's still kindness if you enjoy yourself immensely. Ex., I smile at people who I walk by or encounter because the world does indeed smile back, almost always; making someone else smile is a kind byproduct, but my motivation is "because it's fun."⁣ ⁣ Gotta love a win-win.⁣ ⁣ And for the Converse: Rewatch the one where Phoebe hates PBS but donates anyways to prove to Joey that it is possible to do a truly unselfish (or kind) thing.⁣ ⁣ #kindness #kindnessmatters #kindnessismagic #fucknice #peoplepleasing #peoplepleaser #recoveringpeoplepleaser #growth #personalgrowth #personaldevelopment ⁣ ⁣ ⁣

I kicked booty today. I’m in more pain than I’ve been in all week, but hopefully it’s a side effect pushing it “just right” and not the the flare-causing kind. I’m a #fibromyalgiawarrior and it’s really hard to tell where the line between helpful and hurtful activity is; and when it takes all of your functional time to pay the bills, overdoing it can have severe consequences. . But I’m trying an experiment: adding a 10-minute walk to my 10-15 minute 2x daily workout. (I haven’t posted a video in months, but I’m close to a goal and should soon!) Baby steps, man, send juju it helps. I get frustrated at these slowwww-moving limitations but two years ago I was using a walker so life is good! (Plus, heyyyy rose the size of my head 🌹) . I also busted out most of a content essay for a dispensary, adding “start a cannabis journal” to the list of things I’ve been talked into while doing research for assigned cannabis topics. And, the biggest deal — I made all of my health appointments I’ve been too behind to take time for this winter. Phew. (Sure wish one was a masseuse! #fuckfibro it’s a stupid jerkaronious) Hope your evening is a lovely one 😘

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